A little faith

There is nothing that wastes the body like worry, and one who has any faith in God should be ashamed to worry about anything whatsoever.   ~ Mohandas Gandhi

I am a quote-a-holic.

Quotes perk me up the way little blue pills................well......you get the picture.

The above quote is a great reminder for me today. 

I didn't sleep well last night at all.  My dreams were all over the place (as they have been for quite some time now) and I found myself in that crazy place where you are aware that you are dreaming and you want to do something about what you are seeing but you can't because you are really asleep.... 

So all night it felt like I was trying to put out fires, or at least create a change in what was happening only to find that I could make no difference at all.  I woke up feeling helpless and hopeless, insignificant.

And then I found this quote this morning.  Aha!

Last nights crazy dream situation reflects how I've been feeling in my waking hours these days.  I can see relationships ending and circumstances in my life changing (drastically!) and even though this is all familiar territory, I have been worrying about it incessantly!  Trying to find the logical explanation (is there one?) and trying to find a solution that keeps everything fine and dandy.

If I'm being honest with myself, I have no control over any of this, whatsoever!  I didn't put these balls into motion, they just started rolling and here I am on the sidelines watching it happen feeling hopeless, helpless and insignificant.

That's my real problem.  I've expected myself to know what to do and to fix it.  I've had no faith in the flow of life and I'm exhausted from trying to keep up!  There's a picture.  I'm trying to keep up with God's plans for me instead of allowing that energy to lift me up to the place I need to be.  It inevitably always does!

Last night I went to bed looking forward to the sun rising.  And now I know why.  Somewhere in my being I knew that clarity would come by sunrise.  And it did.

Today I have the opportunity to let go.  Now that I can see where it is I was resisting, I can loosen my grasp and relax a little knowing that in the end all I need is a little faith.








 

A heart to heart

To say I've been feeling a bit lost lately would be a huge understatement.

My mind is all over the place (and so are my blog posts!)

Each day I wake up hoping that today is the day things turn around.

Not that things are horrible.  Everything on the outside is looking just fine and dandy, it's my "inside's" that are making the fuss.

So today on the way home from a meeting with a friend and student of mine, I took some time to think about where I've been and where I feel I am going.

I had a heart to heart with myself and with my angel guides.

I shared my worries and fears about moving forward and (once again) committed to letting go of these so that I could freely be guided to do what and who it is I am meant to be.

It felt good to release all of that energy.

When I arrived home there was a phone message from someone I was waiting to hear back from with regards to an opportunity to teach Continuing Education workshops for a local college.

Instantly, my mind started to go through the list of things I needed to accomplish to make this meeting a success.  My heart started racing and the stress and anxiety began to creep in.

SCREECH!

Wait a minute! 

Did you or did you NOT just tell your guides that you were letting go of this shit stuff?!?

Okay....breathe....

Let the test of my commitment begin!

Let Go

I will be speaking in February for a local Women's group.

The Topic is Let Go....Your Heart Matters.

I have to say that I think "letting go" is a staple of evolution.  There simply is no way that you can move forward if you are not willing to take a serious look at your life and let some things go that don't belong.

I'm reminded of that Sesame Street Song/Game "One of these things is not like the other".  This song would be appropriate to use as you are going through your life inventory.

You must have experienced at one time or another letting go of something, an emotional response to a situation, a stagnant or toxic relationship, a career, stuff out of your closets or whatever and found that once you had completed that task something wonderful came into being in your life.  It happens all time, except I'm not sure we fully recognize and appreciate it.

I look at these happenings as the Universe handing us a gift for being so diligent in letting go.  For being such a good student in the school of life.

Letting go is a key component to personal growth and it has strong roots in being the first step in the discovery of loving yourself.

It also has to be my most favorite thing in the world.  Some people hold onto stuff their entire lives, I don't.  I never have.  I have always had a strong desire to get rid of stuff.  Clothes that no longer fit, things we haven't used in a while (this drives my kids crazy).  It's just stuff, and you always know where to get more if you really need it that badly.

We can spend our entire lives accumulating stuff, bogging ourselves down with the weight of that accumulation.  I believe if you live in a cluttered and stuff infested home, your body, mind and life will resemble that same chaos.  It's almost like every day when you wake up and go about your business you are packing all that stuff onto your shoulders and you end up carrying it around all day long with you.  It can be exhausting!


So letting go is essential for health, happiness, well-being and vitality.  But how do you let go?  How do you cut ties with stuff when you are so afraid of being without?  Baby steps...


One of the first places to start is with stuff around your house that no longer "belongs".  Maybe you have changed decor in the last few years, or maybe you have moved but you still have boxes of stuff that you haven't even opened.  If you haven't touched, looked at or thought about those boxes of old decorations and stuff for at the past 1 to 1 1/2 years you can safely send it to your donation box knowing that whatever is in those boxes is stuff you definitely no longer need. 

You will find that as you do this process, starting with stuff you have stored away and moving into your every day living environment you will find that it gets easier and easier.  If you are having difficulty it would be wise to have a friend help you out and push you along in your endeavour to free yourself from the binds of clutter.

You have to remember that it isn't just de-cluttering.  This is a process of complete healing and it may not be easy, you may become emotional over the task, you may feel overwhelmed and anxious.  Allow yourself to feel those feelings and ask yourself where they are coming from.  Becoming aware of why it is that you "need" to be surrounded by stuff and why it is so hard to let go is crucial in ending the cycle that you have found yourself in.  It is crucial in becoming a stronger individual.