This quote is speaking to me today.
"There is an Indian Belief that everyone is in a house of four rooms: A physical, a mental, an emotional and a spiritual. Most of us tend to live in one room most of the time, but unless we go into every room everyday, even if only to keep it aired, we are not complete." -- Rumer Godden
Lately I've been paying more attention to which "room" I am living in and have realized that I am sometimes afraid to leave that room and venture into another.
The emotional room seems to have been one that I visit less frequently and it all depends on the emotions that are waiting for me there.
I find lately it's becoming easier and easier to show my happy emotions and harder and harder to show my not so happy emotions.
Anyone who knows me well knows that I can't hide my emotions. I wear them on my face and carry them in my body. Expressing them verbally is another issue altogether.
Every once in a while I wake up in a mood that is quite edgy, sometimes sarcastic and always witty. And if I'm being honest here, it is a really fun mood to be in. Personally, it's the mood I feel most creative in, it's the mood where I get more accomplished and appreciate myself more.
And yet, there is a small piece of me that says "you can't show this to other people, this is not who you want them to see. This personality is not cute, calm and inviting. Stay home and don't talk to anyone while you are like this".
That's the voice of the person inside of me that isn't comfortable with her authentic power.
Authentic power is when you are living in all 4 of those rooms and you are comfortable with each of them. Authentic power is never hiding who you are whether you think it's good or bad, it's important to show the world your many wonderful facets of being human.
If only to inspire someone else to do the same.
It's a myth that "spiritually conscious" people never experience anger, resentment, jealousy, shame and have to be loving and kind every moment of every day (Mother Teresa was an extremely special woman, we weren't all cut out to be just like her). Each of us is here to experience all of life, every emotion, every challenge for the sake of our own personal growth.
The point of the spiritual journey is to walk through all of our experiences and learn from them, and that means feeling the emotions that come up throughout the experience.
We rarely learn a lesson of great importance while walking on cloud 9 with a smile on our face and a spring in our step!
So, this quote is a reminder to me to visit my emotional room every day, check in, take a look around and see what needs to be addressed without judgement, without fear.