So I did it. I pulled the plug on facebook. My journey to a facebook addiction free life has begun.
And it sucks.
I mean really, really sucks.
All of my insecurities are flooding in.
It's like someone unlocked the door to the insane asylum and the occupants have taken up residence in my head!
I really had no idea the extent of my addiction, or that the withdrawal symptoms would be so intense.
I feel completely out of the loop. My imagination is running wild.
It reminds me of this one time when I was a teenager. My mom and my sister were going somewhere together (I think grocery shopping) and they asked if I wanted to go with them. I remember refusing their invitation and being adamant that I did not want to spend time with them that day. I was hell bent and determined NOT to go along with them.
The entire time they were gone my mind went wild. I had envisioned my mom and sister having lunch at a fantastic restaurant, laughing and having fun without me. I think at one point I had even convinced myself that they had gone to one of those party restaurants kinda like Chuck E Cheese or something and I felt totally shitty about saying no to going with them. I felt left out, out of the loop. I sat on the porch and waited for them to return. I didn't have fun on my own and basically wasted a whole day wishing I was somewhere I wasn't.
Of course when they returned I realized they really did just go to get groceries and there was nothing to worry about, I didn't miss out on anything.
So I'm probably not missing anything at all. And all the crazy stuff in my head is just that....crazy stuff....in my head.
I am finding it interesting to see where this decision is taking me emotionally.
But as interesting as it is.... I hope it ends soon!