Just before we were leaving for our last trip to the cottage I was feeling completely worn out. I felt like I had been running on a hamster wheel and getting nowhere in life and in business. I was at my wits end, frustrated and not gaining any clarity of which end was up.
As I sat on the dock overlooking the lake one bright sunny day, I contemplated why it was that I was feeling the way I was.
What could I do to change my situation and bring the fun and excitement back into my life.
I sensed that I wasn't completely off track, that the fun, passion and excitement was still within reach but somehow I had just allowed something else to get in the way of me seeing it.
It was in that moment that I realized I had been controlling every move I made over the past few months. And in that controlling space I was feeling more and more disconnected to the way I truly love to live. The control didn't make me feel fulfilled or purposeful, it just made me feel frustrated and tired all of the time.
So in that moment I decided to shift my perspective, I wiped my tears from my face, took a deep breath and pinky swore to God that I would stop controlling everything and just let life happen.
Yes, you heard me correctly. I pinky swore God....
I looked up at the sky, envisioned a large cloud hand coming down with it's pinky finger stuck out and I saw myself reach up to connect pinky's and affirmed that I was willing to relinquish control over to the one who knows what is best for me.
FYI: God LOVES pinky swearing!!!
Since I've been back I've had some amazing 'AHA' moments, creativity has been flowing like water from a tap and I'm feeling energized, renewed and on purpose.
I have had some moments of wanting to step into the control room again (it's habit, what can I say) and it's not long into that moment that God reminds me of my commitment. He flashes that pinky swear moment in my mind and I have no choice but to back off and allow life to unfold before my eyes.
Yep, God loves a good pinky swear.
As I sat on the dock overlooking the lake one bright sunny day, I contemplated why it was that I was feeling the way I was.
What could I do to change my situation and bring the fun and excitement back into my life.
I sensed that I wasn't completely off track, that the fun, passion and excitement was still within reach but somehow I had just allowed something else to get in the way of me seeing it.
It was in that moment that I realized I had been controlling every move I made over the past few months. And in that controlling space I was feeling more and more disconnected to the way I truly love to live. The control didn't make me feel fulfilled or purposeful, it just made me feel frustrated and tired all of the time.
So in that moment I decided to shift my perspective, I wiped my tears from my face, took a deep breath and pinky swore to God that I would stop controlling everything and just let life happen.
Yes, you heard me correctly. I pinky swore God....
I looked up at the sky, envisioned a large cloud hand coming down with it's pinky finger stuck out and I saw myself reach up to connect pinky's and affirmed that I was willing to relinquish control over to the one who knows what is best for me.
FYI: God LOVES pinky swearing!!!
Since I've been back I've had some amazing 'AHA' moments, creativity has been flowing like water from a tap and I'm feeling energized, renewed and on purpose.
I have had some moments of wanting to step into the control room again (it's habit, what can I say) and it's not long into that moment that God reminds me of my commitment. He flashes that pinky swear moment in my mind and I have no choice but to back off and allow life to unfold before my eyes.
Yep, God loves a good pinky swear.
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