The Pain of Change

"You can suffer the pain of change or suffer remaining the way you are.” ~ Joyce Meyer

Hoo Hoo!  I love this quote!

Personally I despise the pain of change, though it doesn't stop me from having faith and moving through it.  It hurts everywhere sometimes.  But the pain of remaining the way I was back in the day and even in remaining who I am today may take the lead in the pain department.

The way I was, was not comfortable at all.  Even when I was in the thick of being an emotional wreck, jealous, self centered, full of blame and judgement I knew I couldn't stay that way.  Knew that there was a better way to live and one day I would find out what it was.

Little did I know that in order to build a whole new you, you have to tear down the old you and boy that takes some time and energy and well, yes, some pain.

Sometimes change is happening and you don't know what is going on.  All you know is that you are a miserable, hot mess!  All you know is that life is not going well at all, that you aren't getting anything you want and everything is a battle and a challenge.

The pain of change can have you doubting your sanity.  It can have you on your knees crying and begging for it all to end.  It can have you turning your life upside down looking for answers and purpose.

Change can be frustrating and it can be very easy to start blaming the world for all of it's hang ups.

I'm moving through change right now.  Big change.  I don't like it.  It doesn't feel good.  I was ignoring change for a while, pretending it didn't exist (oh no you don't change, I am feeling good and doing good and I don't need you right now!).  Don't you wish you could put change on hold.  Don't you wish you had that kind of power?  lol  I know I do!

What I'm saying is this.  I know we are all struggling through change right now.  Every single one of us is experiencing a shift in our lives so profound we feel like we want to puke in our mouths most days.  Yum!  This may be the biggest change you have ever experienced in all of your days on this earth and you may be feeling alone and 'less than' because of it.

Last night I heard myself say "I feel not good enough".  Do you feel that way?

You are not alone and you are certainly not 'less than' anything.  You are a powerful being who is sucking it up in order to create something better in your life (some people have opted not to suck it up!).  You are a soul that is fulfilling a calling to do great things in this world.  You can't do the great things until you've done the homework.  I am often shown in visions that if the Creator were to put me where I want to be right now in this second I would lose my mind!  I wouldn't know how to handle myself.

So, with the promise of a great future comes some hard work.  It takes some digging and getting dirty.

Are you up for a little dirty?