A heart to heart

To say I've been feeling a bit lost lately would be a huge understatement.

My mind is all over the place (and so are my blog posts!)

Each day I wake up hoping that today is the day things turn around.

Not that things are horrible.  Everything on the outside is looking just fine and dandy, it's my "inside's" that are making the fuss.

So today on the way home from a meeting with a friend and student of mine, I took some time to think about where I've been and where I feel I am going.

I had a heart to heart with myself and with my angel guides.

I shared my worries and fears about moving forward and (once again) committed to letting go of these so that I could freely be guided to do what and who it is I am meant to be.

It felt good to release all of that energy.

When I arrived home there was a phone message from someone I was waiting to hear back from with regards to an opportunity to teach Continuing Education workshops for a local college.

Instantly, my mind started to go through the list of things I needed to accomplish to make this meeting a success.  My heart started racing and the stress and anxiety began to creep in.

SCREECH!

Wait a minute! 

Did you or did you NOT just tell your guides that you were letting go of this shit stuff?!?

Okay....breathe....

Let the test of my commitment begin!

Ask the Boss

When was the last time you ran your thoughts and ideas past the boss?

I'm not talking about the guy at the office that signs your paycheques.  I'm talking about your heart!

When was the last time you ran an idea past your heart?

Let's face it half the stuff your mind thinks you should do, your heart would never agree with!

That's where the inner struggle begins. 

When you've been doing too much thinking and not enough feeling in a situation you will no doubt begin to experience a tightness in the chest and fluttering in the tummy!

It's like a built in alarm system in our bodies that goes off when we aren't being true to our hearts desires.

As I prepared for bed last night I realized I've been doing a lot of things based on what my mind thinks I should be doing and haven't once run it past my heart to see if she was in agreement.

I can easily tell by my emotional state and my level of energy that I've been 'mind driven' for a while. 

That monkey mind that plays it's story tapes all day long 24/7 can wear a girl out! 

My mind will wander in every which way, making life seem more complicated than it has to be.  And because I haven't once brought that information into my heart to see if it's true for me, I have gotten caught up in the tide and have been swept out into the ocean of 'useless bullshit' thinking.

And if it's not feeling good then why am I doing it? 

That is a very good question.  I think I'll run it past the boss.

From the heart

Ever feel like you are on a treadmill, you take step after step after step and you still are in the same spot that you started?

Where does this come from? Why do we experience this?

It is because we are taking part in redundant exercises thinking with our human mind and ego that they are going to get us to a place of success instead of thinking with our heart and going in a direction that might not be the easiest in some situations but will certainly bring us the most wonderful of rewards in the end.

And why is it that it is easier to trust the thoughts from our brain rather than the thoughts from our heart?

We ignore the heart's wishes on almost every topic in our life and then we wonder why it is that we are struggling, cannot find peace and are living in a space of chaos and frenzy.

What needs to happen is a reconnection to heart center, to maintain that connection so that with every opportunity we have been presented with we can make the decision that will bring us the most happiness.

There is a lot of good that comes from the mind of humans, but there is far more greatness that comes from the heart.

A reconnection from heart center can come from taking part in activities that fill you with a sense of purpose and fulfillment. If you find you are engaging in activities that make your stomach turn, give you headaches or drain you of energy you are working from the brain only and your body is telling you so. When you find yourself in these moments, stop and ask yourself what it is you truly want? Then stay silent until the answer comes to you, you won't have to wait long and the answer may not be what you were looking for but it will be an answer from the soul, an answer from the heart.