A little faith

There is nothing that wastes the body like worry, and one who has any faith in God should be ashamed to worry about anything whatsoever.   ~ Mohandas Gandhi

I am a quote-a-holic.

Quotes perk me up the way little blue pills................well......you get the picture.

The above quote is a great reminder for me today. 

I didn't sleep well last night at all.  My dreams were all over the place (as they have been for quite some time now) and I found myself in that crazy place where you are aware that you are dreaming and you want to do something about what you are seeing but you can't because you are really asleep.... 

So all night it felt like I was trying to put out fires, or at least create a change in what was happening only to find that I could make no difference at all.  I woke up feeling helpless and hopeless, insignificant.

And then I found this quote this morning.  Aha!

Last nights crazy dream situation reflects how I've been feeling in my waking hours these days.  I can see relationships ending and circumstances in my life changing (drastically!) and even though this is all familiar territory, I have been worrying about it incessantly!  Trying to find the logical explanation (is there one?) and trying to find a solution that keeps everything fine and dandy.

If I'm being honest with myself, I have no control over any of this, whatsoever!  I didn't put these balls into motion, they just started rolling and here I am on the sidelines watching it happen feeling hopeless, helpless and insignificant.

That's my real problem.  I've expected myself to know what to do and to fix it.  I've had no faith in the flow of life and I'm exhausted from trying to keep up!  There's a picture.  I'm trying to keep up with God's plans for me instead of allowing that energy to lift me up to the place I need to be.  It inevitably always does!

Last night I went to bed looking forward to the sun rising.  And now I know why.  Somewhere in my being I knew that clarity would come by sunrise.  And it did.

Today I have the opportunity to let go.  Now that I can see where it is I was resisting, I can loosen my grasp and relax a little knowing that in the end all I need is a little faith.








 

I'm Dreaming.......

In the past two weeks I have had 3 dreams about being pregnant.

No.... I am not pregnant.

The first dream was a little weird.  I was dancing at a concert of some sort (I was with a friend, who seemed to be enjoying herself as she did back flips down the aisles...lol), I didn't know I was pregnant until I happened to look down and I couldn't see my feet through my large belly.  And at the same time that I realized I was pregnant I realized that something was very wrong.  I left the concert and ended up at the doctor's office, where the doctor took one look at my belly and said "yep, this baby's dead" and walked away.  I remember not having any emotional connection to this statement at all.  I shrugged my shoulders as if to say "oh well".

In the next dream; I was pregnant, then all of a sudden I had an infant, there wasn't any actual "birth process" that was shown in the dream, I just all of a sudden had this baby that I was caring for.

Last night's dream saw myself and my friend both pregnant.  We were packing some things away and putting them in a storage room of some sort and I looked at her belly, then I looked at mine.  Her belly was perky and round (a nice looking pregnant belly), my belly was flat and saggy (not a very happy looking pregnant belly).  As soon as I saw my belly I knew that the baby was lifeless.  This is where the dream ended.

One friend interpretted the "dead baby" dreams as being a project or ideal that I have worked really hard on coming to an end or not going the way I had anticipated.

I have lots of ideas and projects on the go.  Though I can say that I have seen some of my ideas fall to the wayside, so my subconscious mind is probably just confirming what is happening and that all is well.

But why does my subconscious mind feel the need to tell me so many times!?!?!?!?

The Significance of Dreams

Have you ever had a dream that stuck with you all day?  The impact that it had on your emotional state was so great that you just couldn't shake the feeling?

Some people feel that dreams are just mind chatter from the day before and this may be true in some circumstances, but not all.

Dreams are significant in bringing to light what is going on beneath the surface.  Hopes, wishes, fears, anxiety they all seem to come up in dreams.  And we can either take a closer look at them or brush them off as meaning nothing and carry on.

I feel if we choose to take a closer look we are opening a door to self realization.  When we accept the gift that our dreams have to offer us our life becomes clearer, less confusing and more manageable.

Many times you may wake up and find you only remember mall things about your dream, the color of the car you were driving, an animal that was present in the dream, the time of day, who you were with.  Even if you remember nothing else, those small symbols can be extremely helpful to uncovering what's hiding.

I remember once dreaming and finding that I only remembered that there was a big white wolf in the middle of the road I was driving on.  I remembered nothing else about that dream.  But what the white wolf tells me is this:  I was ready for forgive myself or someone else however I was still feeling fearful of the situation, but not to worry my strength and independence would carry me through.

All of that from one white wolf.

Many people now call dream analysis their hobby.  The book stores carry a wide variety of dream analysis books and are extremely helpful to those who wish to bring greater clarity to their dreams and their life.

I find it helpful to analyze my own dream and if I need greater clarity I call upon a friend who does her own dream analysis, someone who does this for themselves will have more skill than someone who doesn't believe in their dreams at all.

I encourage you to keep paper and pen by your bed and record anything at all you remember from your dreams.  Also record the feelings you had during the dream, this will also guide you to an answer.

Dreams can be powerful catalysts to change, if we allow them to be.