I Almost Killed Someone Today...

I brought pizza sauce to my mentoring this morning and there is an allergy to mushrooms in the building.

The pizza sauce itself didn't have mushrooms (so obviously I thought it was fine to bring) but the factory it was manufactured in has mushrooms within it and the allergy itself is an airborne allergy.

So of course my intention was not to kill anyone with my pizza making idea and why I didn't see the signs posted on the cupboard doors saying 'no pizza within the building' is beyond me and why I even thought of bringing any food in when I knew there was an allergy potential is beyond me! 

It might have been a slim chance that anything would provoke an allergic reaction but provisions were made and the person made the decision to leave the building for the day just in case.

I wanted to throw up!

My stomach turned and I felt ashamed of myself (for the second time in the same amount of days!  WTF!)

Needless to say pizza doesn't taste so good when it could potentially be a murder weapon.

I apologized profusely for my stupid error and for being stupid and for being born!

Stupid, stupid, stupid (hand slapping forehead).

Flowers will be sent to try and apologize for almost killing her.

ACK!

The shame is gagging me.  I am finding I can hardly breathe.  I want to crawl under a rock and die.

The staff were lovely, just lovely.  "It's happened before, it'll happen again" yada yada yada.  But it doesn't matter.  The damage is done.  The little girl inside of me is in the fetal position and I want to yack up my crackers.  My face is eggshell white (moreso than usual!) and I'm having a hard time swallowing.

Shame is yucky!

That's it.  That's all.  Shame is yucky.

If your life was a book....

This morning I woke up looking for inspiration.

This is what I found.

http://www.ted.com/talks/amy_purdy_living_beyond_limits.html

I often find things that make me go 'hmmmm'.

Have you ever asked yourself the question that this speaker is asking?

If your life was a book and you were the author what would you want your story to look like?

It seems a simple question.  But it is oh so powerful!

Think about all the books you have read.  The fiction stories, the autobiographies, the comedies, the dramas, the self help stuff. 

Those authors put those stories out there.  How did those books change you? 

Now I want you to take this a step further and think about your life as a book you have written.  How will it affect others who 'read' it?

Everyone's story has the potential to inspire and motivate someone else in the world.

What if today you decided that you will conquer the thing that brings you the most fear?  What if you decided that your story was no longer going to be about being the victim but instead being the hero?  What if today you decided to take the first step in changing your lifestyle so that you were healthier and stronger? What if today you decided to do what your heart has always wanted to do but your brain has been talking you out of?

And what would making these decisions; changing your story, do for your life?

On this very first day of a brand new year.  These are the things I am thinking about.  Not resolutions, but story changers.

How about you?