Heaven is for Real....

I love to read.  Unfortunately, I haven't had the time or energy lately to do much of it.

Until the other day when I took a trip to the bookstore to "look around".

I came home with a fabulous book, entitled "Heaven is for Real" by Todd Burpo.

It's a true story about a little boy who experiences a visit to heaven while in emergency surgery for an appendectomy.

The boy was 3 years old at the time of the surgery and little by little shares his experience with his parents.  His father is a pastor in a small community and his mother is a part time teacher.

In the beginning, he seems to just come up with some small comments that have the parents wondering where on earth the information is coming from.  The father puts it down to the attentive Sunday school teachers. 

Further on, as they begin to question the source of this information a little more, they are hard pressed to discount the information as authentic, as there are things he tells them that just couldn't have come from a Sunday school lesson or church sermon. 

He shares with them the way heaven looks, who is in heaven, what it feels like to be in heaven and in the presence of Jesus.  He even talks about deceased loved ones who welcomed him during his visit.

There are a few parts in the story that really touched me and yesterday had me in tears. 

Tears of joy though!

This book jumped out at me while walking through the book store.  I had never heard of it before (apparently it's been all over the tv, since I don't watch much tv I had no idea it existed) and thought it would be a cute read.

This book has come at a time when I have been wrestling with some guidance about the next steps in my life.  It is confirming for me all that I know in my heart to be true about this life and the life that awaits in "Heaven".

It's no accident that I stumbled upon it.

It's a great and easy read.  Something that can truly change your life if you allow the information into your heart.

I'll be sharing this book with others that I know who are struggling with loss.  This book gives hope to the grieving and those that fear death, that one day we will all meet again in the light and love of our God (or whatever you wish to call the divine creator) and forever be free from the pain and suffering we've endured in this lifetime.

Suddenly......

I woke up this morning with butterflies in my stomach.  I don't know why they were there.  There is nothing in my day or week that is remotely scary or uncertain.  I treated myself to a mini Reiki session and then got started on my morning routine.  Wake the boys up, keep them on task and get them on the school bus on time.

Everything seemed to be going just fine until an overwhelming sense of loss swept over me.  I had to sit down because the feeling was so strong.  I'm not quite sure where this is coming from.  I have been doing some meridian work on myself and that could have loosened some residual emotion, and the earthquake in Haiti is having an effect on the entire world.  Maybe it was just time for me to release 37 years of junk I've been holding onto.

Either way something very powerful came over me, it felt almost like someone released the cork from a fizzy bottle of champagne or the release of pressure from a can of pop that's been shook up.

The moment I sat down my eyes sprung a leak and I couldn't hold in the heartbreaking sound of sorrow as it came flooding past my lips.  As all this was happening I was feeling so alone and scared, like a young child suddenly abandoned in a strange place.

It didn't last long, 5 minutes at most and I am at present extremely exhausted!

I hope that whatever it was is at peace now. 

I wonder how many of us have been experiencing these odd and unexpected bursts of emotion in the past few weeks.  I would love to hear about it if you have, the more we share, the more we learn and the more we can be at peace with our evolution and all the fascinating symptoms that come along with that journey.